My room is a mess and my parents come back home tomorrow. I was going to sleep in the living room but that requires putting on pants so instead I’ll sleep in my bed with no pants on because I can. I can rub my crotch all over my bed and not feel bad about it. My bed my rules. I’m being ridiculous, this is kind of really funny to me. I smell like absolute shit. My eyelids are barely staying open. Time to retire to dream land for a few hours.
Last thing I thought was that my room was pitch black and that the sun was going to rise in a few hours. I just turned around and realized that it is already kind of day time outside. It’s about 8am. What is wrong with my sleep schedule. I’ve become so unhealthy. I sleep at like 8am till sometimes as late as 6 or 7pm. I miss out on the day time cause here in good ol’ Michigan it gets dark at like 5 o’ clock. I hardly eat, I hardly sleep or I sleep to much, then I spend my time drinking. Drinking on an empty stomach and not sleeping. This is going to catch up to me soon and who knows what the outcome will be. I’ve been depressed lately. I need a break the anxiety in my chest and the pains in my stomach aren’t that bad yet but I’m not wanting to see them get worse. Maybe I should just go to bed and quit talking to an empty audience. I’ll just roll over and sleep for a while. My parents will be gone to Vegas for four days. I’ll sit back, relax and drink some wine while they are gone. I’m such a little shit, I’m going to bed now before my brain deteriorates anymore.